Or so it seemed
He made for smile
for years and he warmed my crazy heart
I will and have
thrown my pride to the dogs
To have his love
Give anything to
claim him as mine
He was my rock and
my joy
My ever strong
pillar of sense in my childlike universe,
My resounding
voice of reason and source of pain.
My greedy selfish
heart wants only his greedy selfish self.
Call me stupid,
silly and ridiculous
For constantly
wanting to fall into the trap
That my love for him is.
That my love for him is.
A love that lies
with the dust and dirt of the street
A love that has
being repeatedly thrown in my face
Forced down my
throat and has only come forth in tears
A love that has
made me question me
Question my flaws
And wonder if I
will ever be good enough.
It's one in the
morning and all I want
Is to lie beside
you.
Vague and
irrational thinking.
Throwing my phone
away is another option
To stop my itching
fingers
To hold them still
from trying to hear your voice
A voice that used
to be filled with love
Now full of cold words laced with contempt
Now full of cold words laced with contempt
Laced with an
uncaring attitude.
I fucking dare you
to tell me what went wrong.
I dare you, you
contemptible coward
To face me and
tell me why
You would treat me
like a beggar.
I dare you to love
me properly like you know how to.
@nkemoyaghire
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